HALLELUJAH!!!

My long distance relationship is finally coming to an end!!
Mr. GrapeJuice (formally known as R) is coming home to me tomorrow!!!
A WHOLE DAY EARLY!!!!!!!!

Wishful Thinking

I know lots of people {{brides included}} do "I Wish" Wednesdays. Here's a little post that goes along with it...even though it's Thursday. It's over @ Weddzilla!!

Also...
6 Days!!!


[Can you tell that I'm excited??]

E-Card from Mr. R

I got an e-card from R today. I saw that I had while I was at work, and I wanted to watch it so bad but my silly phone wouldn't let me. I waited all day!!!!

It was totally worth it though. Such a sweet card!!

Love Match-matics:
You x Me = Love squared
You/Me = 1
You + Me = Everything!
Me - You = Nothing
Without you,
My love formula is zero!
Missing you...

Personal message:
Hey baby. I love you so much and you are the love of my life. I can't wait to see you cuz I miss you very very much.
(please excuse his not-so-great grammar)

7 days!!!!

A Little Baggage

Please excuse my emotional instability...

I love R - no matter what I say or how I act towards him. But, I fear that I'm in that phase where I'm trying to push him away to see if he'll stay. And, truth be told, I hate it. I want to get over it - if that's what it truly is.

We've been together for 1 year, 6 months, 11 days. I'm very proud of that. It's the longest relationship I've had and by far the best!! From the moment I met him, we had a special connection. {{We met on a snow day, which is significant to me because I was born during a freak snow "storm" in March of 1987.}}

But, I want to laugh with him again. I don't want to be annoyed by simple little things and then start a fight because of it, which even I know is ridiculous. I want him to consider me "fun." I don't want to be the boring girl who sits at home at night. I want to be the girl that goes out to a bar at night to grab a drink.

I know I have anxieties toward trying new things, but I've been out to a club - sans R and with R. Neither were that great. I'm slightly claustrophobic. {{Thanks, Mom!!}} But, maybe if I started slow, like at a nice, clean bar in an open, classy place??

I don't know. I think I'm just rambling. Shame on me for drinking a Long Island Ice Tea tonight. {{You can thank it for my whiny-ness.}}

But, really, we have good conversations, and there's no doubt that I absolutely, positively, without a single doubt in my mind love him!! I just want us to stop saying what we don't like about each other. I want us to be happier - like we were when we began dating...when I did the cooking and laundry for him and he spoiled me with little trinkets.

Any suggestions???

I totally plan on marrying him still, and I know a relationship takes work...but I want it to be better than it is right now. {{Maybe the stress of not having jobs is/was taking a toll on us??}}

Whatever the case my be...what can you suggest to make it better??

Let's Go Out!

My future hubby and I don't go out very often. We've only been on a handful of dates. I'm not blaming anybody. While we were at school, he was working night shifts at FedEx and doing homework. and I was performing/choreographing shows and doing homework or student teaching. We never had the time to go out anywhere. On the weekends, we just wanted to relax and not do anything or go anywhere.

But, now, we're both out of school, and we have the time. Unfortunately, for the next 11 days (including today), he'll be in New York, as he has been since July 23. But, when he comes back, I've decided that we are going to go on a date!

I'm so excited!

My sister and her husband came over for dinner tonight, and we were all just sitting around the table talking. I noticed a coupon book near the table so I started thumbing through it. In the coupon book are several good deals. One deal is for buy one adult admissions, get one free for the General Jackson. And, that is what we'll be doing. I love Nashville at night, and R has yet to see it like that. Perfection!!

Photo: Radisson

The Space Between Us

Since R and I began our relationship in February of 2008, we have never been apart for more than, at most, two weeks. We've practically been inseparable since day one. It's a lovely feeling, and now it's all coming to an end. :(

After graduation, R and I went to Atlantic City for a little post-college relaxation. (Who knew school and exams could take such a toll on someone??) We stayed there for a few days, which was when R popped the BIG question and I said yes. After A.C., R and I stayed at his parents place for a few weeks. We celebrated our graduation, engagement, and his mom's 50th birthday. After being with his family, we made the 12 hour drive to my home. We've been staying here since, and now he's going home for a month and a half. I'm really going to miss him. I don't know what I'm going to do with myself...besides the obvious, which is to hang out with my MOH and looking at wedding dresses!!! But, now, I won't have someone to come and wake me up before he goes to bed just to say goodnight or someone to cuddle with me when we wake up in the morning.

I will definitely miss him while he's gone. But, who knows...absence makes the heart grow fonder! I am so looking forward to our stronger relationship once we are back together. And, who knows, maybe we'll both have jobs then too!!! How devine would that be??

C.